I want to live


For a moment, I want to forget who I am. Most importantly, leave behind who I am and empty out everything. Instead, just by me.

“I never wanted anything from life.”

If I say those words, I would be lying. In Fact, that would be the biggest lie of my life. I wanted, I have always wanted. I just never could bring the words out. My voice failing, my heart breaking, my soul shattering.

Once you figure out who you are and what you love about yourself, I think it all kinda falls into place.

Sitting on the couch, having a cup of coffee – I just thought, that – ‘What do I really want in Life?”

Ummm… I don’t know yet. So, I will pour my heart here and will tell everything. Today, I will be true; true to my readers, and most importantly, true to myself. I realized it was only me who was stopping myself from living my life.

I….I….I….I want to live. Live the life at fullest, enjoy each and every moment of life and want to do everything which I was longing for. No barriers, No Constraints can stop me for that.

Yes. Not one but many lives in one lifetime I want to live. I want to write about myself and everyone I ever met, capture the essence of what it’s like to live. To be able to read everything beautiful and painful ever written and appreciate the experiences captured. All of this hoping to inspire and be inspired.

I want to learn and to teach. Yes, both, because I have life defining encounters that need to be shared and understood. Even so, I still have life-changing experiences, lessons to learn.

I want to become a child again and want to remind myself what it means to start over, to be back at the beginning of one’s life so that I can live the moments of childhood again.

I want to eat all kind of cuisines and to dress well like a star/celebrity, have a nice car and nicer as well as a big home. To be rich, famous and appreciated. I want to full fill each and every dream of my parents and also which I dreamt of. The little things and the bigger things, I want all of them. I want to explore the world by visiting all beautiful and mesmerizing places in the world.

I want to be single and yet attached. Alone yet accompanied. I want to be everything and nothing all at once.

‘Although a relationship isn’t going to make me survive. It’s the cherry on top.'

I want death to want me. It cannot take me like that until and unless I have exhausted these lives I want to live and become! I want the death to desire the enriched soul I will be!

I want it all; slowly, gradually, definitely. Is this possible? I don’t know -  But certainly, I will make my parents proud of me.


                                                  

                                                  

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